A girl and her hat!

Thoughts #1

This was a random picture that was taken by sister. Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed with everything in my life so I decided to do a black and white filter. Usually I'm always a trooper and just deal with whatever comes my way. 

Being a mother is the most rewarding but also the most frustrating. Kids will challenge you, mold you and in many ways, define you. Motherhood is a unique time in life, you experience not just the birth of your baby but also the rebirth of your identity as a woman, rather than a girl. Now that I have a child, I've never had my patience tested as it has been for the past year. LOL! Even though I was blessed with a really amazing little boy, we all have those moments where we break and get really frustrated. What do you do when you get really frustrated? What helps me is writing down my feelings, going for a run, getting away or just meditating on my own when the baby is down. Along with raising my child, I also have to be the best partner that I can be. I knew that in my life I've always wanted to have a family but I didn't realize how much work it can be. Everyday no matter how you can be, it's important to talk to your spouse or partner about your day, feelings and worries (focusing on other topics vs. always about your child). Even if it takes 5 minutes during dinner, It's better to have 5 minutes rather than nothing at all. A quick cuddle or kiss goes a long way too. Currently I'm in Hawaii but when I get the chance I fly home and it makes me feel like I'm energizing my battery. You must be thinking wouldn't you charge your battery in hawaii? Not exactly, knowing my family is all back on the mainland makes this hard for me. I am blessed to have an amazing support system. My spouse and I are always able to have date nights where we really try to enjoy each other, it helps us become stronger.

Although at the end of the day, I still wouldn't change my life for anything. I am extremely blessed and thankful to have these amazing experiences. I believe that it is important to not lose yourself when you have a family. I am not the typical type of parent that is all about my child. I adore my son but I have an identity too that I don't want to lose. It's ok to focus on yourself and have fun while having a family. Life is too short...

Location: Waimanalo Bay, Oahu Hawaii