What was your reaction when you found out you were pregnant?

Were you really happy about being pregnant? When I found out I was pregnant, I was in shock! Then I cried and took 4 more pregnancy test because I couldn't believe that I was really pregnant. Lol! I told my partner and initially he was happy and told me that everything will be ok. Then we both slept that night and woke up with anxiety which lasted for a few months. LOL! Finally we began talking more about the idea and though we were in shock, deep down we were a bit excited.  I was 31 years old at that time and I felt that it was the perfect time to be pregnant. There is no way I could have abort it. I felt that I was old enough to face my decisions and that having my son was the best decision for me. The thought of having a baby grow inside of you changes the way you think and feel about the situation. It's no longer about you! God works in mysterious ways and I knew that this was a sign of maturity. I'll never forget when I went to my mom's house and I broke down to her and cried. Trying to explain to her that I was pregnant was a bit hard due to her jumping for joy LOL! My mother explained to me how she felt when she was pregnant with me and how everything will be ok. My mother had always made parenting look easy and so effortless. She is such a strong woman and I always feared that I wouldn't measure up. Her three children were her only priority and did whatever she could for us to have a decent life. 

Times have now changed. More women have become independent and focused on their careers.  I sort of wanted that life! Kept questioning do I really want to be a mom? I felt I didn't accomplish everything that I wanted to do just yet. And one of the hardest things for me was trying to not lose who I was. Honestly, I knew that I definitely didn't want to be the typical parent. There is a lot more than motherhood.  It may sound a bit harsh but in order for me to give my son the best of me, this mommy needs to be happy too! So I do a very good job at trying to balance life with my son, spouse and friends. I live life to the fullest! After this emotional roller coaster, my son has brought a lot of joy into my life! Even though there are more challenges to come, all I can say is that I am ready to face them! If I can go through having a child, I can go through anything! The fear I had in the beginning has made me stronger and I look forward to the future :)